It's happened again. Just when I think I am doing well in the world and growing, I go and get myself stuck again. Stuck in my own head. I have not been feeling well for months now. Been going through lots of testing and changes trying to get back to myself. This has caused a lot of turmoil and uproar in my head. Old Sarah is trying to come back to protect us. She has some pretty unhelpful coping skills that are just not needed at this time in our lives. She loves to hide, wallow and stop living life in an effort to self preserve. Every single day lately is a battle between old Sarah and new Sarah. I am happy to say that new Sarah is winning a lot more as of late. I have so many goals and dreams. So much I want to do. So many people I want to help. Our old self preserving ways will not allow me to do that.
I often say thank you for old Sarah because she was certainly doing her best to help. She just didn't know there was a different way. A more effective way. She is just in it to survive but new Sarah is in it to THRIVE. I am always and forever on a journey to healing. I feel so blessed when people decide to walk with me along my path. One of my many new coping skills is to pour myself into others and help them to grow as well. Through teaching I find my best learning. I learn the most about myself as I help others. It's a win win. It's funny how they will say I have helped them so much, but in reality they have helped me just as much if not more. I am so thankful for all of these amazing women in my life who want to grow WITH me and realize that I too am flawed but at the same time willing to put myself out there for something I believe in so strongly.
Project You Reloaded: from surviving to THRIVING is coming soon. We start June 17th. I know I am as ready as I will ever be. How about you?
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